‘The poems in this collection are an illustration of the hidden tattoos that have been etched along my skin and into my soul. Although invisible to others, they are a mesh of mental and emotional moments and memories. They are a testament of my survival, and more importantly a reflection of my growth. They are my silent voice…’
Invisible Tattoos is a collection of twelve distinctive poems that depict the beauty and darkness of the human experience through words…
Described as 'Poetic Stories,' each poem uses clever wordplay, thought provoking lyrics and a story-telling style, to explore a range of subject matters such as social inequality, the challenges of contemporary culture, and the timeless topics of love, heartbreak and inner conflict. The art of poetry is used to discuss history, politics, economy, culture and how this is intertwined with our identity. The poems are all accompanied by an individual analysis which explains the inspiration behind each bitter sweet story of human connection, struggle and spirit.
Invisible Tattoos is a book that will take you on an emotive roller coaster of highs and lows. Delving into the darker side of life and examining the complex world of emotions and encounters, this book provides a social commentary of the unheard voices of multi-cultural society, while touching on the subjects that make us all human and unlike anything else on this planet. This unique collection of poems will undoubtedly leave an imprint on your mind...
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lyrics
You ask me how I can be so heartless
It’s been ten years, so...
How can I just leave you like this?
It’s like you’ve forgotten the stress that you put me through with your selfishness
Can’t you see what’s happened to me after a decade?
You’ve been punishing me every day with the mind games that you played!
See deep down inside of me I know that you’ve been lying to me...
It’s like idiocy has got the best of me, cause I haven’t been able to control my emotions successfully...
So I start my routine when you fall asleep
I’m hoping that you’ve left your email open, or better still your FB!
Last night I broke into get into your ride, hoping to find a sign, but I didn’t have enough time, cause you woke up and almost caught me!
So I’m praying that tonight God will be good to me...
Then I see the things that I have been afraid of seeing!
There’s a picture of some breasts, then another two sets and about 20 or so filthy texts
Wait a minute, didn’t you send some of these to me?
I have to laugh in astonishment at this mess!
Cause I can’t believe that you are so heartless!
Heartless in every sense...
YOU taught me how to use my heart less...
You made me feel worthless when you used my car as a cab to conduct your sordidness
When I went to work you used my landline to talk dirty with other women!
I bought your clothes and food cause you had financial problems
While you lived in my home with condoms in your pocket that you planned on using with your mistresses!
I stood by you through your sentence...
I could’ve betrayed you but I chose to be honest!
It all feels so senseless cause you were just toying with my emotions!
You are not aware of the notion of devotion!
You are an example of a lost generation that lives for the moment!
Your ego is only verified by the opinions of your wasteman bredrins that have no jobs or morals so they search for substitute status symbols!
You see caring as a weakness!
So you put your dick first and my heart last!
And I sacrificed my heart for your happiness!
So I guess that’s where my heart went...
I actually began expecting disappointment
Built a wall and froze in my sad existence...
I couldn’t kiss you cause it was all a pretence
And sex was a means of pleasure not expressing feelings!
I can’t even remember the last time we engaged in love making...
And you hated the distance of my absence
You needed physical reassurance
So you called me heartless...
You manipulate your words; you’re the master of this game!
And although the truth is hard to hide, you deny it while you work my brain
Then you start cussing me!
Calling me insane, profane!
And I’m starting to question my sanity, because I really want to believe what you’re telling me...
I guess this is called transference...
Cause now I have begun to question my hearts existence
If it exists, why would you treat it with such coldness?
It’s taken me some time, but I finally realise that we are trapped in a system
Where you lie, and then I cry
You’re not sorry but still apologise!
I complain, but you don't change
And when you get me to the point of as much as I can tolerate!
You say that you love me
But what you say and do is contradictory...
So shame on you, but shame on me too!
Cause I’ve been trying to prove my worth so much to you that I seem to have forgotten my value...
See I died so many times to live in your presence...
So next time you ask me why I am so heartless
Remember that you have killed me more than once
I’ve got bite marks on my tongue, because your needs always came first!
So in you I can no longer keep believing!
I refuse to put my trust in you cause it will cause more suffering!
My heart is locked to prevent another breaking from occurring!
I can no longer give you everything and I refuse to be your victim!
You tore my heart into pieces and you tainted my heart beats rhythm
And now I am desperately trying to resuscitate a heart that has been starved of oxygen…
See I am not heartless… because underneath all of these scars that you have inflicted on me, I still have a heart that truly exists...
It just dances differently because of the way that you treated me…
So you can call me heartless…
But remember that YOU taught me how to use my heart less!
credits
from Invisible Tattoos,
released October 23, 2016
Written by: Farida Momtaz
Performed by: Farida Momtaz
Music by: Farida Momtaz
Audio Engineer: PGM Express
Produced by: Farida Momtaz
Poet Douglas Kearney and composer/producer/drummer Val Jeanty link up for a a compelling LP that feels like the written word come to life. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 30, 2021
